Dadd y dy dayydydydydyddy dDADDY KNOWS EVERYTHING
This font is actually called “Teen” and what the fuck does it MEAN
I want a cigarette and I want to fuck
Give me what I want I am selfish give me it.
I am a five years old girl and I am mad at everyone forever because im not spoiled ROTTEN
Spoil me like lbad meat
That’s gross what
;leave me a lone eeeeeee
im watching the super moon fuck off nerd
I called my brother a nersd because he drank all the motherfucking chocolate milk
Ddaddddddyydydydydyyd kILL HIM KILL HIM HKILLLLLLLLLLLLLLH IMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
Don’t kill him hes my little brother I love him im sorry. Im sorry I m soryyyryryryr
Im actually so hyper right now I need to just punch myself a few times
I need to find a less physically painful wayt o fall down the stairsssssssss
I worked at a place today and made $37 I hate my life because I owe my little brother $25 so like I only made $12 really and I cant buy
Cool drugs with that
I mean like maybe a dime bag
But f that
I don’t care
Thrift shoppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppp pepepepeep
I havt o peeeeeeeeee
Everyone LEAVE ME ALONE IM WRITING A NOVEL
No im not im wirting about how hyper I am but still
Leave me alone
I want to know what 200 pounds of weed looks like
I googled it AND
It looks cool like a lot of tiny broccolis
Daddy issues are a super weird thing to have
I wanted to listent o a song but then I went out side and smoked a half a cigarette
And I don’t hve to pee anymore I let my brother check his FACE BOOK
And now he’s laughing at me he tells me this is why we’re siblings
I think this is the beginning of me going crazy Carayzyzyzyayayayayayzyzyzyy
My foot itches so badddddddd fuck this gay dumb earth
Give me xanax or give me death
That’s the motto y’all
Fucking FUCK CHOCOLATE MILK I WANT IT SO BAD
Hello little doggie
Hello jake I see u under the kitchen table u little weirdo
Here is the Thing nobody ever f*cking tells u:
U will hate your best friend 50% of the time
And u will love them the other 50% and that is a science FACT
Another science fact:
Girls have the same DNA as flowers
Actually u have the same DNA as whatever u want
U could be a turtle or a fly or even a venus fly trap
I wonder ifthe supermoon has DNA that would be cool I would want to be the supermoon if I could be something else
I want to be nothing sometimes
Daddy was telling me the other day about how people ruin everything &
I told him I think that ‘s why I love people SO mUCH
Because I look at them and see the way that they ruin everything & think its ok
Because the way they ruin everything looks just like me
And I love them already
I hate that word capitalizes everything that’s supposed to becapitalizeddddddd
I hate capital lettersssssss
I hate spelling and language
I want to speak nothing
I want to BE NOTHING
Can’t stop thinking
”if u do this to me again I will actually vomit”
I just wanna hear ur sweet voice that’s all
Im needy and stupid n sad
Love me love mem love me love me
LOG OUT LOG OUT LOG OUT LOG OUT LOG OUT LOG OUT LOG OUT
I don’t give a ficCK IM SO HYPER I COULD KILL EVERYTHIGN
Fuckign comic sans who am I
Who am I in this world
I killed a spider today I am so sorry
S o sorrryyyyyy
Bu I hate spiders I think it was a wolf spider
We googled it
It had 8 legs of course it had 8 legs its’ A SPIDER
There’s cold pizza on thetable and I think my opa is mad
Fr what ever reason lol
My phone vibrated in my pocket I know who it is it’s DaddyyyyyY!!!!
I’m glad it was Daddy im glasd I was right
Im drinking pepsi at 11:04 pm I don’t care
I have lost the ability 2 give a fuck about ppl who make me feell like shit and this is a really positibve feeling for me
Good vibes and all that u kno
I smdh at nerds who try 2 tell me what 2 do bc like, seriously.
Go f urself douche
If any1 tries to tell me what 2 do I punch their head a hundred times
And then spit in their eeye and say
”lol nerd” and then laugh at them because I’M BBYGURL NO 1 CAN TEL L ME WHAT THE FUCK TO DO
NOT EVEN ANYONE
NOT DADDY EVEN
Jk I listen to Daddy because hes my Daddy and he knows best
Goddamnit im so hyper I killed a spider
I took a picture of its coprpse and screamed for at leas t 15 minutes because I was so full of adrenaline
Killing spiders gets me really fricked up
I hate talking about spider s make me stop make me stop doing anything I can’t even look at myself in the mirror im so weird
I just looked at m y armpit hair and got really disgusted but then really proud bc I don’t care no one can tell me to shave my arm pits or I will do the spit-in-the-eye thin g
I only belong to Daddy and that ‘s cool because LOVE
LOVE IS STUPID& YOU SHOULDN’T DO IT BECASEU EVENTUALLY IT WILL MAKE YOU USE YOUR MONEY TO BUY DRUGS AND U WILL LAUGH AT UR OWN BLOOD WHEN IT COMES OUT OF U
NO ONE KNOWS MORE ABOUT BLLOOD THAN ME I M THE BLOOD QUEEN
Say my name and I will fuck u up douchenerd
Ha ha ha fuck off forever
When dudebros give me grief about my body hair I give them gthe middle finger
Take THAT fuckers
M is andr y
Yeah gurls roule and boys druooooool fuckers
I don’t care I od’n’t care
I don’t FUCKGING CARE
I only care about me and Daddy and turtles
Man I fucking love turtes
Im sorry I lied I do care about you
Unless you’re a rapist then u can rot in HELL fuckbag
I hope u find out ur mom never loved you
Because I sure as fuck don’t love u and I don’t care about ur life or the things that happen to u
U are a disgusting person and I hope u rot. In hell. Fore ver.
Imdrinking pepsie at 11:11 pm
I don’t make wishes
I make FISTs
I seriously am in so much love with you my hwole life (not rapists tho) im in love with u. im in love with ur heart and ur here-there eyes thank u I am
And hugging u
i wish i could kiss you
every time i saw a baptist church
while traveling through the south.
i like to stare out the window
at passing cars and pretend
you’re a passenger in all of them,
because it gives me a reason to wave
and smile at strangers
i will never see again.
my blood feels heavy &
my hands will never be still
& it feels like i am
watching myself moving in circles
around how much i need
i can’t tell if i feel like
in this hotel bath tub
(since i know you think
that’s the worst way to die)
or falling off a 22-story building
(since i also happen to know you think
that’s the best way to die)
or if i should just keep
loving you &
let that kill me
i am kissing onto your back
like you are wet cement
or an ocean
the dead animals inside me
don’t stink so bad when
you’re around here
my head feels like an emergency
& i don’t notice the rot in me
because of your hand around
my neck i love you.
we are here & thank you
& i am putting stars
into your mouth
& when your lips are on
my lips the whole world
gets quiet and also dies.
i learned that veins dilate
just like pupils do & mine
are like pipe-cleaners now when you
breathe on my cheek i love you
my sleep has been a type
of neglect so closing my eyes
helps me stop from spinning.
when i think about the bruising &
the barely-breathing & the begging
it is harder than usual for me
to keep from touching my heart
with my dirty fingers
i have published another ebook called “Indoor Voices”!
it can be read here
thank you for your time! I love you so much.
strip me of my clothes
tell me you love me.
when you have my heart clenched
tell me you still do.
tell me it never gets easier.
i will never really find the wounds
I won’t go looking for them,
Because i know that the second i think
it’s time to heal,
you’ll be there again.
making me want to touch your hand.
making me want to save you.
making me want to keep you.
so when people stare at me
"with scars like that,
who’s ever gonna love her?”
i’ll think to myself,
"I don’t even feel them anymore."
this is how to be a sixteen year old virgo:
1. get high with your taurian brother and over-analyze everything. Realize that while you’re articulating some of your troubles, he’s silent. Recognize that to your older brother, you are second best. Notice how he handcuffs himself to a bottle at night so he’ll stop thinking and go to sleep. Care more about everyone more than you do yourself.
2. Worry about a boy you used to love sleeping next to you,his pain drifting in and out with every content snore. Hes comfortable with you, and all you can do is worry about him.
3. Go to a party with your best friend and get drunk and then make out with her after taking off your tops. Let people take videos and be gossiped out through the halls on monday morning. Hello, Vixen, nice to meet you.
4. Isolate yourself from all those you adore. Call it “lonely”, call it “guarded”, call it “help me god i have done this to myself”.
5.Criticize the people around you in order to focus on them better. If you can have flaws, then goddamnit, they can too.
6.Lie in bed at night and think to yourself, (from beneath you glow-in-the-dark stars, your pokemon blanket, snuggled up with your stuffed unicorn)
“How beautifully chaotic it is, to be sixteen.”
Your beauty is
askewed by what feels like the
biggest ocean in this world.
Distant in more than one sense of the word.
You shoot me with your one-word arrows
they go right through my chest.
Clean, cut, handsome.
And as I count the holes in me,
wishing you’d just touch them,
I find out where I belong.
Pat Benetar said once that Love
is a battlefield.
Maybe she forgot to also explain
how we reenact a different World War
you, crawling into bed with me.
And my legs ache like I’ve been
standing for 23 years,
but you never came to bed.
Let Germany rejoice.
We’ve avoided a catastrophe.
i’ve been meaning to ask you all sorts of things.
things about lava lamps,
navigational skills, patience, ice cream.
mythology. museums. musicals.
i lay awake at night
wanting for you to be around to answer.
to hear me say, half-dreaming,
“i love you. i love you. i love you.
i think about you before i sleep.”